Saturday, April 18, 2009
It's Tough Being a Woman
Amen to that! I have been doing this Bible study with a group of ladies at church, and it has just been incredible! I have been learning so much. It's been a long time since I've been able to do one of the women's Bible studies at church, but I knew that God wanted me to do this one when I saw the promo for it and Beth Moore said, "Where is God when you don't get your miracle?" That was where I was living then... but I'm not there anymore.
No, nothing has changed... at least not in a tangible way. We still don't have a second child. There are still no birth mothers considering adoption with our agency. And I'm not pregnant. So nothing has really changed... but I've changed. My understanding of Who God is and how He works has changed. My definition of what makes a miracle has changed. Even the way that I wait has changed. So in a way, everything has changed.
Here are some things I've been learning lately through this awesome study:
~One of the most important parts of fulfilling my destiny will be transparency. To identify is to testify. If they can't see it, it's no good to them. God wants to use even my struggles to be a witness to someone else.
~The most common command in the Bible is "Do not be afraid." Can I imagine living without fear? Even if my worst fear happens, even if I never have another baby, God will take care of me. My God is good and He is faithful.
~Nothing drives my enemy like my own PRIDE.
~ The longer I wait, the harder He's working. In my wait, God is never inactive. "In the meantime" is God's time. I lose my strength when I wait upon the event (ie: having a baby). But I renew my strength when I wait on the Lord! Isaiah 40:31.
It is my prayer that in sharing my struggle God might be glorified in me... and in you!