"We're not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be."
-C. S. Lewis-
I saw this quote today on a wonderful online support forum that I belong to, and it really touched my heart. Because C.S. Lewis gets it. He gets me. This is right where I am.
I have come through the doubt and the fears that God's plans for me are something I just have to settle for. I've accepted the fact that what the Bible says about God's plans for me are true, that He has plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to bring me hope and a future. So at this time, in this place, I'm not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for me... but oh how I wonder how painful His best will turn out to be.
He has promised me many things... but He has never promised me that His best for me will be easy. Or fun. Or what I would have chosen if I were in control of it all. Because infertility hurts, and it's hard, and it can drag me down quicker than anything else right now. But God is still God, and God is still good. And God has His best in store for me. Whatever that may be.
Help me to walk with my head up, Lord, secure in the knowledge that You are doing the best for me. And when it gets painful, because it will... I'm going to need Your help to get me through it. And I'm going to trust that You have a plan in it all, even the hard stuff, and that Your plans are ALWAYS for my best. Everything for my good, all for Your glory. You are showing me that this is true. Thank You.