Today I had a God moment... in front of the entire congregation. I was singing a special music with Steve (Desert Song, which is kind of my theme song right now), and when I got to the part that goes:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship.
I just started crying. On the platform. In the middle of the song. In front of everyone.
But the weirdest thing was, I wasn't crying because I was sad. I mean, I'm in a really hard season right now, and I've been here for a really long time. But I had prayed before I went up to sing that this song would be my offering to God, and that it would also be an encouragement to others. So in that moment, singing those words, I realized that I really did believe them. I really meant them. And in offering them to God, the tears came. Tears of surrender; tears of release.
Which brings to mind some words from another favorite song:
Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name.